'How or why?' Ugh field vs. purpose
Nothing insightful in this one, just thinking out loud.
I have been thinking I was burnt out the past few months, but really I'm not sure that's the case anymore. I was watching a video where this girl was suggesting to figure out if you're burnt out or just lacking a 'why', and that helped me recontextualize things. I'm not really feeling particularly exhausted--I've not been following my healthy habits as much lately, but I still have energy to get through most days. And I have energy to do things other than school! I think I'm more so just missing my 'why' than feeling burned out.
I'm not a big believer in some intrinsic 'why' in any dimension of life, so I'm more shopping for 'whys' right now if you will. I have plenty—wanting to get a well paying job, having a reputation to keep up, being proud of myself, etc.—but I think I need to pick one and let it be my North Star. I need my own Moby-Dick! (I've never read Moby-Dick so if this allegory doesn't make sense just kill me or something idk)